Something's wrong

I keep telling myself that it’s going to be okay, that we will talk, that we will be friends. I’m not so great at this whole optimism act, cause I’m still crying myself to sleep every night.  I honestly couldn't tell anyone why I loved you. I just always had this feeling that we weren't meant to be together. I'm sorry I ever tried. I was a fool to have hope in you. I just get the greatest feeling when i see you looking at me, even for just a second or when you say my name because i know that even if it's only for a second, i crossed your mind. You've got someone here, someone who wants to make it right, someone who loves you more than life.  I'll always be waiting outside. Maybe one day you'll let me in. I have a long list of things to say, but I'll leave it at, you amaze me. You are my fairytale that i never want to end, even with a "happily ever after."