No one can save me; the damage is done

I've never felt like this before;; && maybe my judgment's a little poor but i've fallen for you, fallen so hard...
Tell me I'm not making a mistake. Tell me that you're worth the wait, that you're always going to be here. Make me believe that I'm making the right decision by still holding on. Show me that you're going to be around to catch me when I fall. 

 Boy, I know I wasn’t good enough for you. I wasn’t smart enough. I wasn’t funny enough. I wasn’t outgoing enough. I just wasn’t anything enough. I'm damaged from the inside. I've been broken.  If you read my mind, you'd be in tears. 

But all I really want is a boy that keeps his promises and listens to my babbles. Someone to call when I get scared from a movies I'm watching, someone to laugh at me, and someone to hold my hand when I pulls away. It's not that much to ask for, is it?
I always have this fear that one day you are going to discover that I'm not as great as you once thought I was.

I just want to scream and shout and cry and stomp my feet and fucking rip the world apart. But I guess I'll just settle for smiling faintly and acting like nothing is wrong with me.


-Please, don't make promises you can't keep, and don't say things you don't mean because in the end, those things mean everything-

I can't keep being your second choice; not when you're always my first.
(notes: and I hope the boy is you)

source: LoveC